swamp brag and grats, all in one
Nov. 11th, 2014 07:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jamnationI brag/swamp I just got my period, completely off cycle and out of the blue
I swamp zero tampons in my house
I swag passing out at 7:30 last night instead of packing
I swamp packing
I swamp taking amazing pictures and not being able to share them online
I swamp people cropping my pictures unartistically, to crop out their nipples which you can't even see! how about just leaving the top lace of the top?
I swamp living in a world where women's beauty and sensuality and physicality is still thought to be TOO whatever, that teachers don't want people in their work life seeing that they might have other sides - WTF
I swamp having so many photos i'm excited about but no time to work with them
I swamp having so many self help-y books and not making time to read them
I swamp only allowing myself to read for pleasure on vacation
I swamp wanting to bring like 5 books to Miami when I know I won't be doing much (if any) reading
I swamp being bigger every time (this is my 5th miami)
i swamp looking at pictures from my first miami and thinking 'i was thinner then', and also remembering how little i was inhabiting my body, what a huge deal it was to even wear a bikini in public
I brag and am grateful that I am loving myself right where I am, that I know my size doesn't affect my Beauty and grateful that I have many Fab outfits to runway
IAG for the 'room' and Sat runway, it changed my life and rearranges my cells everytime
IAG that I changed my flight to a day early, for an extra day on Thursday to have time to luxuriously acclimate and have some alone time
IAG for South Beach, for traditions, for all the fun plans, for deepening Goddess connections
IAG for all the outfits, and most especially for no longer feeling like I have to 'earn the right' to wear a bikini - Fuck that shizz
IAG for upgrades and the ability to travel in style
I brag no roommates unless i desire company
I brag and am grateful that whatever my mom might feel about me not including her on this trip (because it had been much discussed earlier in the year) I am NOT feeling it, it is not in my field
I desire to ramp up my self care to ridiculously selfish levels
I desire to start taking the time to do the longer rituals from Deep Dive...I am worth the effort!
I desire to get help with some tech stuff, so that I don't lose all this class material I've paid for and can catch up in my own timing
I desire to come up with some pleasurable desires around the holidays
I desire that my brother lets us know his plans for thanksgiving this week. I really desire that he and my nephew have other plans.
I desire to be super gentle and loving with myself in miami, to pay attention to have i'm feeling, to take a break when I get overstimulated, to trust and flow and be present, for every day to be a Golden Day
I desire to connect with Regena in perfect timing
I desire to connect with my sisters
I desire to leave Miami glowing and filled to overflowing with juice and fire
I swamp zero tampons in my house
I swag passing out at 7:30 last night instead of packing
I swamp packing
I swamp taking amazing pictures and not being able to share them online
I swamp people cropping my pictures unartistically, to crop out their nipples which you can't even see! how about just leaving the top lace of the top?
I swamp living in a world where women's beauty and sensuality and physicality is still thought to be TOO whatever, that teachers don't want people in their work life seeing that they might have other sides - WTF
I swamp having so many photos i'm excited about but no time to work with them
I swamp having so many self help-y books and not making time to read them
I swamp only allowing myself to read for pleasure on vacation
I swamp wanting to bring like 5 books to Miami when I know I won't be doing much (if any) reading
I swamp being bigger every time (this is my 5th miami)
i swamp looking at pictures from my first miami and thinking 'i was thinner then', and also remembering how little i was inhabiting my body, what a huge deal it was to even wear a bikini in public
I brag and am grateful that I am loving myself right where I am, that I know my size doesn't affect my Beauty and grateful that I have many Fab outfits to runway
IAG for the 'room' and Sat runway, it changed my life and rearranges my cells everytime
IAG that I changed my flight to a day early, for an extra day on Thursday to have time to luxuriously acclimate and have some alone time
IAG for South Beach, for traditions, for all the fun plans, for deepening Goddess connections
IAG for all the outfits, and most especially for no longer feeling like I have to 'earn the right' to wear a bikini - Fuck that shizz
IAG for upgrades and the ability to travel in style
I brag no roommates unless i desire company
I brag and am grateful that whatever my mom might feel about me not including her on this trip (because it had been much discussed earlier in the year) I am NOT feeling it, it is not in my field
I desire to ramp up my self care to ridiculously selfish levels
I desire to start taking the time to do the longer rituals from Deep Dive...I am worth the effort!
I desire to get help with some tech stuff, so that I don't lose all this class material I've paid for and can catch up in my own timing
I desire to come up with some pleasurable desires around the holidays
I desire that my brother lets us know his plans for thanksgiving this week. I really desire that he and my nephew have other plans.
I desire to be super gentle and loving with myself in miami, to pay attention to have i'm feeling, to take a break when I get overstimulated, to trust and flow and be present, for every day to be a Golden Day
I desire to connect with Regena in perfect timing
I desire to connect with my sisters
I desire to leave Miami glowing and filled to overflowing with juice and fire
